reality

the reality of life right now is that i am stressed. very, very stressed.

our house is on the market. we had one showing on wednesday. trying to keep the house neat while you have two little kids is just close to impossible, but i did it. the people who looked at it decided not to buy it. there isn't much interest in the house. we will likely rent it. it is stressful to think of the logistics of renting, though it does seem to be a good option considering the circumstances.

just this morning we noticed that there seems to be a leak in our roof...the wood that covers the scuttle hole (i just learned that term...thanks google) to the attic was wet. it appears there is a small amount of water getting in just above that. so...now we have calls out to roofing companies to get estimates for repair. we both kind of felt like we wanted to throw up...i still kinda feel that way. it just feels like one thing after another and our resources to fix things are limited at this point.

we don't know where we are going to be living after we move. it looks like jeremy and i are going to go to south carolina in mid-may to scope out our options and hopefully find somewhere to live when we move there a few weeks later. even though our time there will be very task-oriented, we are looking forward to getting away for a few days together. as much as we can, we are going to try to make it feel like a little vacation. i don't think it will take much...just the thought of driving in a car together and having uninterrupted conversation for approximately fourteen hours sounds like a vacation to me.

jeremy's work schedule is just crazy these days. working all kinds of weird hours. he will only be working there for three more weeks after this one. we can definitely handle three more weeks of this craziness. once he starts working in south carolina, he will work a normal monday through friday schedule, with occasional turns being on call. i can hardly wait to be on a normal schedule. i think it is going to really help all of us.

parenting in the midst of all of this is quite a challenge...it's hard to keep patience and maintain a calm atmosphere when inside we both feel totally stressed out.

my mom is coming for the weekend and will be arriving soon. it will be really nice, especially since jeremy is working all weekend.

one kid is napping, the other is in her crib counting to thirteen at the top of her lungs (thirteen is as high as she can get). i should probably go get her up. she will be excited to see grandma when she arrives!